Oblivious insanity

I don't believe it, I fight and died for nothing
Such marvelous nightmare or such horrible dream
Structure sick society, everything down to the deep shit
Talk random weird thing, in a mental institution
You're not my angel, I refuse to become your victiM,Dying with your spell, searching love in dwelling,hell,,Death smile to all, we just can smile back,,In the darkness, in the shadow, never talk about that beforE...I need to know, I need to know,,Why everything abuse, insult me in these sadness, sorrowI need, bright light,,(I'm not insane)I need eyes to see everything inside, inside(You never know inside my hearT)Underworld antic and wrath absurdities collide, collide
(Just holding my pain)Particular hideous freak, mysterious fatuous device, device(Until I meet my almighty God)Deep in consciousness and disobey my God,,Have you ever been in a place where your hopes are gone?
(I am so alone)Under pressure, where people don't want to understand?
(Despise)Crowded inside my head,,(Oh God)I couldn't hold myself to kill someone,,(Suicide)

\m/ySELF

Can't explain my feeling don't know right words to say
So I'll do what's right for me although it's wrong
Confuse... confuse, feel like something in me died
That's enough for me no needs to explain

Nothing be my confident... Hurt!

Hatred... Hatred, feel like everything burn
Broken... Broken, scattered around the gutter

I feel so guilty of being me
I feel so waste of being me
Dissapoint!

tiga titik hitam

Ketika semua bayang menjauh dari tubuh,,Dan ketika semua angan enggan menyapa,,Terbaring aku, terjebak aku,,Di keheningan dalam ketiadaan.........

UNBLESSING LIFE

Crawling In Disgrace!
So much pain, that i cannot pretend
Restless soul shocking in hollowness.. In hollowness!
Emptiness this soul completelly this hole
Reallity of this fate is denied in this only hope
choose in my own path..
I dont feel allright..
I neverable being careless..
How can i explain in despair?, i will walk through this hell

Ya Tuhan begitu pekatnya ruang jiwaku
hanya kematian terus samar memanggil
singkirkan harapan yang terus memudar
Semakin tak bermakna, semakin tak bercahaya
Inikah garis hidup yang tak terberkati..

I will walk.. through this Hell..
Heal this wounded soul!

Heal this soul,
I'm just an empty word, sound of meaningless
Buried in speechless.. Despair!
How can i explain in despair?

How can i explain from despair?
i will walk through this hell
Shut up!